So I've made this committment to shed a few layers of me. I need to understand this time, why I need/want to do this. A few weeks ago I made a list in my head of the reasons I want to lose weight. Here they are:
* want to not be winded when I run up the staircase to catch my train in the morning
* want to feel sexy again
* want my kids to be proud of me
* want to sleep better at night (no more snoring!)
* want to eat and not feel guilty
* want to walk into a store and know that clothes will fit me in that store
* want to smile when I look in the mirror
Is it enough?
One would hope so.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Well this is different..
Hi out there. I have no idea who reads these things and how people find them but figured what the hell. I'm a 38 year old mother of 2. I have a full time job, my kids lead busy lives outside of school with their sports and other activities but I have decided this year is for me!...
It's scary. I have never put me first but I think it's time I did. Why now? I missed my 20 year high school reunion last weekend and feel sad that I didn't have the guts to go. I felt too old (which is stupid, because everyone would have been 38 duh!) and too fat. Ok ....ya got me, that's the real reason.
Ok. I'm overweight - by about 40 lbs actually. Eight years ago I lost 47 lbs putting me at a comfortable weight for me. At that time I weighed 167 lbs. In the last 8 years I have gained all but 7 lbs back - you do the math, I don't want to. I keep making excuses, it was the salt in my meal, it must be that time of the month again, I had a bowl of ice cream for dessert but I never do that. All bullshit! All of it. I'm done with it.
I have to put me first. My doctor told me 1 year ago that I needed to lose 20 lbs and I've lost none, actually I think I've gained 8 lbs since I last saw him.
So - this is it! Hopefully you will stick around to help me in the race. You can hear about me, my husband, my kidlets and everything else that makes me smile and cry.
Buckle up, hang on, it's gonna be a wild ride! I might even fall off the wagon a few times. Actually I know I will ~ hopefully I'll have the strength to hang and get back up.
It's scary. I have never put me first but I think it's time I did. Why now? I missed my 20 year high school reunion last weekend and feel sad that I didn't have the guts to go. I felt too old (which is stupid, because everyone would have been 38 duh!) and too fat. Ok ....ya got me, that's the real reason.
Ok. I'm overweight - by about 40 lbs actually. Eight years ago I lost 47 lbs putting me at a comfortable weight for me. At that time I weighed 167 lbs. In the last 8 years I have gained all but 7 lbs back - you do the math, I don't want to. I keep making excuses, it was the salt in my meal, it must be that time of the month again, I had a bowl of ice cream for dessert but I never do that. All bullshit! All of it. I'm done with it.
I have to put me first. My doctor told me 1 year ago that I needed to lose 20 lbs and I've lost none, actually I think I've gained 8 lbs since I last saw him.
So - this is it! Hopefully you will stick around to help me in the race. You can hear about me, my husband, my kidlets and everything else that makes me smile and cry.
Buckle up, hang on, it's gonna be a wild ride! I might even fall off the wagon a few times. Actually I know I will ~ hopefully I'll have the strength to hang and get back up.
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