Take 876

ok - so last week was just a warm up. I know I'm ready now. Today is Day 2. I will count yeserday as Day 1 even though I was horrible with food but it was big N's 13th birthday so there was bound to be food and cake... and there was.

Yesterday morning wi 206. So down .5 from last week. Not bad. Not great. Let's do this!

Today - water, toast and salad for lunch.

dinner is unknown but we can make good choices. I know we can. :)

A bit of a stumble out of the gates

Ok - so the good thing is that I'm more concious about what I'm eating and grazing on in the evenings. The bad thing is I still really struggle with "after school".. well actuall work, but I have always called it after school. The time when I walk in the door, throw my purse and bag on the stair case and head to the kitchen for a cookie, snack, what ever. I can't shake it. I'm so hungry when I get home. I think I need to plan for a mid afternoon snack (other than my banana) to keep me satisfied for the rest of the day.

Water intake has been better.

I've been home bored a lot in the evenings which tends to lead to snacking. I need to really work on that.

So the scale has not really moved, but it's not weigh in day until monday, so I still have time.

UGH. ...why can't it be easy.

Going to fill up my water bottle and come up with a plan for lunch.

A fresh start

I have not been around for awhile - and guess what? Yep, you guessed it. I have gained back all the weight that I lost. It's so depressing.

Just when I think that I'm on a road to doing the right thing, I take a break (vacation, what have you), and I fall off the wagon and usually I fall hard.

I really want to do this. I'm now 40. Ugh. I hate that and I dread going to the doctor for him to tell me I'm 40 and Fat. But I am. Not much I can do about that now.

So. Baby steps to getting on the right path again but there needs to be steps none the less.

My first step is this blog. For some reason when I'm on track, I blog and track my weight daily. I have not been doing this. Over the past few weeks,  I've been back and reading other's blogs and that seems to get me to want to be committed but I haven't made the full committment just yet.

I need to drink more water. I don't drink nearly enough. Right now I'm staring at my water bottle and i've only filled it up 2 times today and it's already 1pm. I should be on round 3 by now.  So more water.

Moving. I really need to start moving again. That is going to mean at night after work or in the gym at lunchtime. Regardless, I gotta do it.

I'm depressed that I'm heading to the cabin this summer and I won't be strong enough AGAIN to get up on the knee board.

Hopefully this is the path I can choose and next year I'll be strong enough.

1. Blog
2. Water
3. Move

and let's throw in no cookies as well.
4. No cookies.

Good luck me!

Let's see where this takes us. Today's weight 206.5. FUCK!