Wall climbing

I feel the creep happening again. 

The dreaded weight creep. 

Before my vacation I was hovering at 169/170. Basically getting up to the top of the wall, sitting there for a bit and then jumping back down again. Never quite crossing the wall to the other side. 

Now - I'm not not only not on the wall, but I've jumped back away from the wall. 

When I finished my vacation, I weighed at 174ish... so I had gained 4-5 lbs. Completely what I expected after 2 weeks of basically eating/drinking whatever I wanted. Usually that takes a few days to fall off and I settle back into my pre-vacation weight again. 

Not this time. I have been back to work since the 9th of August and the weight is still high. I did manage to get down to 170.4 this past Monday and I thought I was on a track to getting near that wall again, but this morning when I weighed it was 173. 

This has happened before and If I don't get hold of it soon, I'll soon be talking about the 179/180 wall. It happened last fall and without even noticing I was back near the 190s.

My goal this year was to get to the 160s and it just hasn't happened. I saw it on the scale maybe 5 times over the summer but it was just a peak. 

So, summer is basically over. I do have one more week of vacation and we will be heading away somewhere but I'm not in the mindset of drinking and eating anymore. At least I hope I'm not. 

We had sushi last night and I feel so bloated today. I'm also mid cycle which tends to be heavier for me on the scale but I'm done making excuses... well not done, but I do need to get serious. 

As of today,  I'm committing to getting serious.  I really really need to do this. For my physical health, for my mental health and for my wardrobe. 

So here we go. Starting weight 173.1. 

Let's get back over that wall! 

Mental Health

It seems like every one we know right now has a child suffering with mental health issues.  My two best friends have daughters that are struggling; one is 13 and struggles with anxiety and acceptance and has said she feels suicidal at times, the other is 23 and has struggled with eating disorders for the last 4 years and will be admitted for treatment in a few weeks. 

Last night we heard of another friend that has a daughter that has been cutting herself , she is also 13 and  yet another friend that has a daughter that struggles with bulimia. 

Of course, we also have struggles in our own family with my son, who is 21 that has struggled with anxiety and minor depression this past year.  With a lot of work, he is doing much better, but it will likely be a struggle that he will have again in the future at some point. 

Why so many?  It seems like everywhere we turn we hear of friends, who have children suffering. What is so different now from 30 years ago when I was growing up? Was it just more hidden then and nobody talked about it? Or was there less suffering? 

I really feel that social media has so much to do with the struggles that our youth are fighting with on a daily basis. But I also feel that it's the norm to have a mental health struggles and I would never say it's the "cool" thing to have because it's not, in any way, but the more I talk to my friends, the more it feels like their children feed off of their friends struggles. If one friend is struggling they seem to struggle too? 

I wish there were an understanding why this seems to be the silent, or maybe not so silent, epidemic that is really going to affect our future. If our children do not have healthy minds, how can they have healthy futures and families?

Sometimes you just gotta put on the lashes

Last night I attended a dinner for a friend that turned 50 over the weekend. I did not want to go to the dinner.  I wanted to stay home, curl up on the couch with the tv remote and just chill. 

I'm not a fan of the birthday girl's husband and as my hubby unable to attend, due to a cracked tooth repair, I was just dreading the entire evening. 

Normally when I get in that mood, I either make an excuse not to go or just slap on a pair of jeans, put my hair in a pony, maybe throw on some mascara and go. 

Last night I thought, maybe if I really doll myself up, I will feel awesome about myself and have a good time. And you know what?? It worked. 

I dragged from the closet,  a cute as hell halter top dress and  some strappy wedge sandals.   I shimmied my way into my strapless bra and tummy control spanx, put my hair up and yes, I pulled out the fake lashes. 

Here is the dress. 

I looked good. I felt amazing. And I had a great time.  I didn't get a picture of myself but kinda wished I had now. 

After 18 or so months of living in track pants and no makeup, it was a reminder that sometimes just making yourself "feel" good and pretty, changes everything! 

Nuff said...

 

Time to get serious. Summer needs to be over. 

A mini challenge

Usually when I see weight gain after a vacation, I jump right back in motion and get back on track. Not this time. For some reason, it's been hard for me to quit the handfuls of chocolate covered blueberries hiding in my produce drawer in the fridge. I am snacking on nuts, and pretzels and all things snacky

I know that having my period start the day that I finished my vacation was going to be tough, but I've used it as an excuse to not get back on track. 

So my period is now officially over, we are at the end of the week and I haven't even had the guts to weigh in as I know it's still high from last week. 

So my mini challenge is JUST for this weekend, to see if I can get back on track. 

Here is the challenge:

1. Drink my water - or more water, or at least some water!  My water intake has been awful, so I need to improve on that big time. 

2. Ditch the snacks. No more snacks. I'm eating my 3 meals for the day and that's it. 

3. Ditch the useless carbs. Way too many carbs this last few weeks. Chocolates, pretzels, crackers etc.  Gotta get em outta my mouth 

Let's see if I can do these 3 things this weekend and get myself back on track. Gonna be hard as hubby is working tomorrow so I will be likely just puttering around the house and if I'm bored, I'm likely gonna wanna eat. But I will have to be strong!  Strong like bull! :) 

I'll check back on monday and report if I passed or failed the challenge! 

Reminder that last monday I was 174.2 EEK. 

Rest and Relaxation

Back from Vacation. So well rested. 

We had a nice vacation. Went to Whistler for a few days with the pup and spent some time hiking and biking. It was hot so we were limited with what we could do and how much time we wanted to leave the dog in the hotel room. It was also extremely busy in the village. So much so that we were unable to find anywhere to eat on the first night so had to grab take out and bring back to our room. Well we could find places to eat but the waits for tables were over an hour and I was starving. The next night we had dinner at 4:30 to beat the rush! 

We figured going there from Wed-fri would beat the rush but apparently many others had the same idea. We high tailed it out of there on friday morning of the long weekend and could not believe the line up of cars just trying to enter Whistler. 

The following week we stay-cationed and spent time riding the bikes, going for lunches, visiting friends. It was lovely. We had a 50th birthday party in there as well. 

On our last few days we travelled to Vancouver Island by bike with 2 other couples. We rode a total of 135KM (84 miles) over the 2 days and even on ebikes, my legs were aching when we got home. Had a blast. Ate and drank Waaaaay too much, but figured what the hell. YOLO! 

Back to work this monday - stepped on the scale for this first time in 10 days and Whoooops. 174.2. Momma gots some work to do! 

Replacing cocktails with water and detoxing the sugar and sweets from my body. Hopefully won't take too long to get back to pre-vacation weight. 

Why oh why does it come back so fast!? But take so long to lose.....