It almost feels like whenever I post something on this blog I sabotage myself and go hog wild. Just like last night.
I was starving last night, which resulted in a pig out before dinner and then a sodium loaded dinner of beef and broccoli. It was good though.
Tonight's dinner will be chicken cause we haven't had chicken all week!
So I did myself a favor and counted everything that I ate yesteray. All the bites, licks and tastes. I went over 10 pts... minimum but we are going to count 10.
Today I regroup and drink my water to flush the sodium and eat clean.
That's it. Talk tomorrow, and hopefully I'll be reporting about a very clean sucessful day.
Maybe i'll even go for a workout tonight if I feel up to it.
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Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
here we go again....
It's been awhile.. Actually a very long time since I have been here and not much has change. I have contemplated changing things up, changing the look and feel of this blog and I might just do that but I'm not ready just yet.
I need to back up first, just a bit. About 6 months worth of backing up. At the end of August I went for my overdue check up with the doc. I was scared of going because I knew I was heavier than I had been in past years and that he would be mad at me. What happened I did not expect and I was devestated from it. During my routine exam of taking my pulse and checking my blood pressure, the doctor was unable to find a pulse (or a loud pulse) and my blood pressure was not loud enough to get a decent measure. That scared me. Scared me because of the way that I have let my body go and as a result my doctor was unable to get a good reading of my heart because of the fat in my body.
I left that doctor's office devestated. I cried for a good day (in private of course) and told myself that I was changing. I was going to become healthy, lose the weight and show the doctor and myself that I could take care of myself.
Did I? Uh no. I didn't. And hear I sit 6 months later in the same state that I was leaving that doctors office.
Well, that is up until 2 weeks ago. 2 weeks ago I joined WW again and I feel better. I am down 4.5 lbs and feeling more normal than I have in years. I see a light at the end of the tunnel and I'm going to head towards it!
It's not going to be easy. Actually it's going to be really hard but I have to do it for my health.
Lately I have had problems with my eyesight, my skin, frequent urination at night and I lookd it up yesterday and it might be a sign of diabetes. GAH! I have to turn my lift around now! Not yesterday, but now!!
So here is my pledge on this journey. I need to take care of me so that I am well enough in the future to take care of others.
It's going to take baby steps.. my first step is eating right and then I will add movement. I'd like to start running again but with my size right now that will be hard, and painful. We will see though. Baby steps.
WI day was yesterday and I was 206.5 UGH
But I stepped on the scale today and it it sang back to me 205.5 - not really sang but you know what I mean!!! Let's hoping it continues the downward spiral.
Peace out!
Momma
I need to back up first, just a bit. About 6 months worth of backing up. At the end of August I went for my overdue check up with the doc. I was scared of going because I knew I was heavier than I had been in past years and that he would be mad at me. What happened I did not expect and I was devestated from it. During my routine exam of taking my pulse and checking my blood pressure, the doctor was unable to find a pulse (or a loud pulse) and my blood pressure was not loud enough to get a decent measure. That scared me. Scared me because of the way that I have let my body go and as a result my doctor was unable to get a good reading of my heart because of the fat in my body.
I left that doctor's office devestated. I cried for a good day (in private of course) and told myself that I was changing. I was going to become healthy, lose the weight and show the doctor and myself that I could take care of myself.
Did I? Uh no. I didn't. And hear I sit 6 months later in the same state that I was leaving that doctors office.
Well, that is up until 2 weeks ago. 2 weeks ago I joined WW again and I feel better. I am down 4.5 lbs and feeling more normal than I have in years. I see a light at the end of the tunnel and I'm going to head towards it!
It's not going to be easy. Actually it's going to be really hard but I have to do it for my health.
Lately I have had problems with my eyesight, my skin, frequent urination at night and I lookd it up yesterday and it might be a sign of diabetes. GAH! I have to turn my lift around now! Not yesterday, but now!!
So here is my pledge on this journey. I need to take care of me so that I am well enough in the future to take care of others.
It's going to take baby steps.. my first step is eating right and then I will add movement. I'd like to start running again but with my size right now that will be hard, and painful. We will see though. Baby steps.
WI day was yesterday and I was 206.5 UGH
But I stepped on the scale today and it it sang back to me 205.5 - not really sang but you know what I mean!!! Let's hoping it continues the downward spiral.
Peace out!
Momma
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
shhh, although it's not really a secret..
That I need new bras!!! It's a good thing I guess that my boobs are shrinking, but not a good thing in that I need to now go to the store and get a better fitting bra. It's one of the things I hate shopping for most, other than a swimsuit, cause that is the absolute worst, isn't it?
Ok - Hair cut on thursday, I'll go bra shopping on friday - or maybe after work tomorrow. I still need to find something to wear to the dance on saturday too. I think it will just be my fall back black pants and a blouse of some sort. I don't really feel like dropping a bunch of money on an outfit that might (hopefully) won't fit me by the start of summer.
Down 1 lb. Which is a bit better from the stalemate of yesterday. So 196. Feels good. Hope to be 194 by next monday... we'll see.
I was 201 on Feb 1st and I'm 196 on March 1st... hmmm gotta kick myself into gear here!
Ok - Hair cut on thursday, I'll go bra shopping on friday - or maybe after work tomorrow. I still need to find something to wear to the dance on saturday too. I think it will just be my fall back black pants and a blouse of some sort. I don't really feel like dropping a bunch of money on an outfit that might (hopefully) won't fit me by the start of summer.
Down 1 lb. Which is a bit better from the stalemate of yesterday. So 196. Feels good. Hope to be 194 by next monday... we'll see.
I was 201 on Feb 1st and I'm 196 on March 1st... hmmm gotta kick myself into gear here!
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Oh the games we play...
Today is my official WI day, but I'm not recording the number that I saw on the scale this morning. Why? Because I don't like it. I know it should be lower, because it was lower on sunday morning and saturday morning and I know that it's higher today because of what happened last night....
What happened last night? Nothing terribly interesting, but little guy had a game last night right at the dinner hour. And when the game ended at 6, we had a choice to drive home the hour and then try and decide what to pull together on short notice, hit a drive through on the way home or walk 20 feet to a variety of different restaurants, sit down and pretend to have a "sunday" dinner even if we are not at home.
So we chose door #3. I let the big kid choose because I felt bad about not letting him go to his buddies house for dinner. Instead, I told him he had to come out and watch his little brother's game and he would enjoy doing it. Which he didn't, but that's just brotherly love, right? So he picks East Side Marios. I had been to one of these restaurants when I was back working in WI but never on the west coast. So in we go.
After perusing the menu for sometime I decided on the "Hell's Kitchen Chicken" which I ordered with water/lemon. It was shitty. I still ate half of it, cause I was starving, but it really was not good. Actually none of our meals were very good and the service was slow but the service has nothing to do with my weight gain.
So, after a shitty salty meal, getting home at 8:00, I really had no time to drown my body in water to rid of the salt. I would have been up all night peeing.
That's my reason for not recording my weight. I'm at exactly the same weight as last week 197.
I will weigh myself again in the morning and take whatever that weight says and mark it down. I know it's a head game, but it's my head game.
Today I will drink water to flush out the salt. I will eat like a normal WWer, count my points, eat my veggies and fruit and be happy.
:) Oh and I will NOT eat a piece of the banana bread that was kindly baked for our office this morning by the Baking Queen! Love her, but hate her at the same time.
What happened last night? Nothing terribly interesting, but little guy had a game last night right at the dinner hour. And when the game ended at 6, we had a choice to drive home the hour and then try and decide what to pull together on short notice, hit a drive through on the way home or walk 20 feet to a variety of different restaurants, sit down and pretend to have a "sunday" dinner even if we are not at home.
So we chose door #3. I let the big kid choose because I felt bad about not letting him go to his buddies house for dinner. Instead, I told him he had to come out and watch his little brother's game and he would enjoy doing it. Which he didn't, but that's just brotherly love, right? So he picks East Side Marios. I had been to one of these restaurants when I was back working in WI but never on the west coast. So in we go.
After perusing the menu for sometime I decided on the "Hell's Kitchen Chicken" which I ordered with water/lemon. It was shitty. I still ate half of it, cause I was starving, but it really was not good. Actually none of our meals were very good and the service was slow but the service has nothing to do with my weight gain.
So, after a shitty salty meal, getting home at 8:00, I really had no time to drown my body in water to rid of the salt. I would have been up all night peeing.
That's my reason for not recording my weight. I'm at exactly the same weight as last week 197.
I will weigh myself again in the morning and take whatever that weight says and mark it down. I know it's a head game, but it's my head game.
Today I will drink water to flush out the salt. I will eat like a normal WWer, count my points, eat my veggies and fruit and be happy.
:) Oh and I will NOT eat a piece of the banana bread that was kindly baked for our office this morning by the Baking Queen! Love her, but hate her at the same time.
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