Tuesday, February 15, 2022

Scale Obsession

I'm a daily weigher and if the number is either too high or surprisingly low in my mind, I become an obsessive weigher. In that I weigh myself every time I go to the bathroom which can be about 6 times during my working day. 

 Over the last few months I have been so proud of myself for not being scale obsessed. I even went a few days without weighing at all! Something I rarely do. 

My weight was always somewhere in the 172-175 lb mark. So higher than it has been and higher than I truly like it but nothing to make me obsess. 

Well a few weeks ago I started to see that weight drop. I believe it was a result of what I was doing in terms of intermittent fasting and cutting out excess carbs. I even hovered back to the 170 mark and guess what? 

I became scale obsessed again. I want to get over that darn 170 wall so bad and see the 160s on a regular basis. It has now been over 2 weeks and I'm back in the 173 range. 
 
I know I'm making better choices for my body and what I'm eating but I just want to see the scale go down and I don't want to be scale obsessed anymore either! 

I do like the scale keeps me accountable and on track, but I don't like the hold is has on me. 

Oh well, I've been like this since I was a teenager so I guess some things just don't change and I need to work with them, rather than fight them. 



Monday, February 7, 2022

What weekend?

This weekend was a blur. 

We were supposed to see friends on friday for dinner but at lunchtime I just wasn't feeling the vibe of getting dolled up to go out to dinner so I cancelled. Felt bad, but in the end, the other couple had similar feelings. 

I thought I would take the big boy for a walk - just him and I as the puppy can be annoying to him on a walk and he doesn't really get his true exercise, not being able to walk at his own pace. We headed out after I finished for the day, going for a decent walk with a final stop at the park for a run around. I let him off the leash once we got to the park so he could have a sniff around on his own. We stayed for a few minutes and then headed home. 

Later that evening, when my son got home from his dinner, around 10:30, he went in to see the big boy and say goodnight and something was wrong. He was unable to stand and his head was bobbing around. His pupils were dilated and his heart was beating really slowly. We rushed him to the emergency hospital in town (about 30 minutes away). They did some tests on him as they expected that he had ingested marijuana. His urine test came back negative but they said, it could be a false negative as he was still presenting with the signs of THC toxicity. My baby.  He must have found weed in the park. The vet recommended that he stay with them for the night, get IV fluids and they could run a few additional tests.  

I didn't sleep a wink on friday night. Saturday we sat around and just worried about big boy.  The puppy walked aimlessly around the house looking for his buddy.  The hospital checked in with us a few times on saturday and said that although he was improving with the IV he was still showing some neurological deficiencies. :(  My baby.  The vet said that it still looked like THC toxicity, even though the test was negative. They suspected it was likely an edible. 

Sunday morning at 6am I called them and they said, he looked much much better and if we wanted to take him home, he was well enough to come home. 

I was absolutely relieved. Thank GOD!!! 

That dog is my world.  I got him when I started working from home over 7 years ago so we are together all day, every day. We have our routine, our ways, our life.  I know I don't have him forever but it was way too early to even think of saying goodbye. 

One thing I know is that he is overweight. He's a lab!!! he loves food (like his momma) and as dog parents, we reward and show love with food!  Well, that has to change. 

He needs to slim down a bit so we can keep him as healthy as possible. 

So he will be joining me in creating a healthy lifestyle and healthy eating habits. It's going to be hard with having the puppy here as well, as the puppy gets so many treats with training etc. But it has to be done. 

For me, my eating has been on track. There was stress over the weekend but I still managed to eat under control. The IF is going awesome. On saturday I broke my fast at 3pm and then shut the window at 7, so 20:4 for that day!  I'm trying to do an 18:6 fast day and so far it's going well. I find myself less hungry and eating within that window is good. I'm trying to make sure I'm getting a good amount of protein and fat during my eating period to keep me full for the remainder of the day.  I'm going to check my blood glucose later this week and see if there are improvements.  

My weight was 170.4 this morning. Down 3.1 from last week. There could be some stress loss or PMS loss in there somewhere as well, but as of now I'm excited about that. 

Close to getting over that wall, once again! 


Monday, January 31, 2022

Progress

 Yes, my weight did drop this week although that is not what I'm counting as progress. 

My weight this morning was 173.5 so down 1.8 from last week. I'm happy about that but more happy that I have managed to curb some cravings this past week, keep at my IF and I'm feeling better. 

I have been IF mostly from 7pm to 11 am. Although on Saturday I managed to make it until 2pm. 

I have cut out most sugary carbs although I did sneak in a 1/2 donut on the weekend. 

I am already feeling better both inside and out. My skin has started to improve (psoriasis) and I am waking up much more refreshed in the morning. 

The weight loss is a bonus at this point! :) 

It's supposed to be a relatively dry week so will be nice to get out for some longer walks with the pups. 

Here is what they look like now... henry is getting big!! BTW - this picture was taken last week when I was having lunch.... they just stare at me while I eat! :) 




Wednesday, January 26, 2022

What is going on?

 What is going on here?? Well, nothing. Hence the lack of posts. 

Life is just trucking along. Weight is backup in the mid 170s... poop. I stopped weighing regularly and starting eating more. 

Time to get back serious. I really really want to be close to the 150s by my birthday in May. It's doable. I just need to buckle down and be serious. 

I quit the gym. LOL. ... so not a great start to the plan above, but I have not being using the membership since the start of covid and now I don't have a car so I would have to wait for hubby to come home and then go which just feels too late in the day. I used to like to go around 3pm when the gym was not busy and I could get my workout done and be home by 4:30 and get dinner ready etc.  So no real exercise is happening here other than walking the puppies. 

My eating has been bad. Lots of bread and carbs and stuff that I normally just don't eat. I need to strip that out of my diet again. 

I've tried to start intermittent fasting again. I stop eating around 7 and then don't eat again until 11 am. I've even switched my creamy coffee to black coffee in the am. The issue is now between 11 am and 7 pm. I need to rein in the eating for sure. 

Would like to get to a point where my fasting window is longer but I need to work on cutting out more food first. 

So that's me in a nutshell. 

Keeping at it. 

current weight is 175.3. 



Monday, January 10, 2022

Not the start to 2022 that I figured....

Well, we got Covid. 

Hubby tested positive on Thursday and so we have been isolating since then. My symptoms are much milder than his but his symptoms are still fairly mild. Basically a bad cold for him. We had one day of being super duper tired but other than that, we've been ok. No problem with appetite. DARN! :) 

The biggest pain has been the isolation. I've had to do online shopping orders and limit our exposure outside. I don't mind online ordering but I do like to go into the stores to look at foods and pick and choose what we are going to be eating for the week. I tend to plan my meals as I shop and see what is fresh and/or on sale. 

It's monday today and I basically am completely fine. Hubby is still a bit sick. I had my two vaccines and booster, but hubby only has 2 vaccines. Perhaps the booster kept my symptoms on the milder side?? 

I'm very thankful that we had mild cases of Covid and hoping that is it for awhile.  I know many that have had a much harder struggle with the virus so I do count my blessings that we got through it ok and quickly. 

Stepped on the scale today. 170.9. Inching in the right direction. 

Hoping the rest of January is uneventful. 


Tuesday, January 4, 2022

Happy New Year!!

 My life continues being a mom to a very demanding puppy! Yes, I do believe I have created the monster but he's so darn cute! 

Not much has been happening the last few weeks. We celebrated Christmas and NYE. More covid restrictions here so they were both somewhat quiet. Well NYE we had our best friends over for dinner and I got very very very drunk. I didn't drink very much but it hit me hard and fast. Right in the middle of a board game it hit me.  I actually think I had alcohol poisoning. If I hadn't recovered by the following day I would have thought I had some other kind of illness. It was bad, very bad and even though I made it to midnight I also spent the following 15 hours in my bed, moaning and groaning and dying so to speak. Will be awhile before I drink again. 

Other than the eventful NYE, everything else was really quiet. I ate way too much over the holidays and all the wrong foods. 

My psoriasis flared up again and so I know it's related to carbohydrates and sugar. So back on the low carb bus for me. 

My weight is up, but not drastically. I think I was 173 this morning which is what is has been for the past 2 weeks so up about 2 lbs or so. Still unable to crack that 170. 

That's my goal this year... to get into the 160s..and stay there! 

2021 was the 170s,  2022 is going to be the 160s! If I can get there, I think my body will be happy. Maybe I'll get into the 150s but I doubt it. We will see though. 

So no big new years resolutions over here other than to get back to eating better. More greens, less carbs, less sugar and more water. 

We got this. 

And as requested.... pics of Henry and Murphy. Hen is 30lbs now!!! 


out for a walk on Christmas day! BTW we never have snow on Christmas Day!



Henry absolutely loves his big brother - big brother is still not completely sold on the idea of a little brother 









Wednesday, December 15, 2021

Henry

 It's been awhile and I've been BUSY!!! Like new mom busy! Like new mom TIRED!!! 

This is Henry 






He's adorable and he's a ton of work!  Just like having a newborn. But a newborn that can walk and get into things and and and. 

but we are having so much fun. 

So that is where I have been. This is my whole life right now.